there is sumthin wrong with me

I can tell that sumthin's wrong n i hate it.

I feel like exploding.

I hate everything.

What's going on with me?

i feel so low, what should i do?

I don't know why i feel so low, so sad, at the sametime. Maybe i shouldn't have checked outmy path account. Path is the place where rich n happy people show off their happiness. I guess. And i have nothing of both. I feel like deleting the app from my smartphone. Yeah, i guessthat would be one good step.

I mean at fb, things are more normal. Sad, happy, anxious people are there. So i'll just stock to fb.

But is it all about? People' happiness at path?

Of course not. I have other disappointment in life. And he might be the cause of all these.

I don't know is it healthy or not for me to keep blaming him. But i do blame him, and myself, for being with him.

Ok i got 2 wonderful kids with him that i might not get should l marry someone else. But
aarghhh. He's so insensitive. Now i feel like crying.

I am at a point where i hate everything. And i hate myself for that.

Tired

Shit happens again. Why cant it stop? I am tired of all his shits. I am afraid I could get a disease because of having to deal with him every single day.  Do I really deserve it all?  It's killing me!!!

Oh God... why can other people be happy and loved while I get this instead?  Are my sins that much? 

I regret it to the bottom of my heart.  And damn  in this holly month,  I feel this hatred again and it's so painful I could hurt myself.

Shit shit shit!!!